It's not even Thanksgiving yet and I'm already for the Christmas season to be over. My mom loved this time of year she loved Christmas music and watching Christmas movies on Hallmark. Now that she's gone this season just hurts. I've already broken down and cried twice once when hearing I'll be home for Christmas at Disneyland to film my most recent vlog episode and again today at Jack in the box when I heard the line "Just like the one I use to know" from the song White Christmas and realized that I can never have the Christmases I use to know ever again.
Not only is this my 2nd Christmas without my mom it'll be my 1st Christmas without my Grandma. I know that both my Mom and Gram are Heaven and finally have the peace that they deserve (my mom was a single mother who worked 2 jobs pretty much her entire adult life and my Gram had been in consent pain for years) and they are there with Him because of who's birth we celebrate this season. But knowing that sure doesnt make things easier.
Not only is this my 2nd Christmas without my mom it'll be my 1st Christmas without my Grandma. I know that both my Mom and Gram are Heaven and finally have the peace that they deserve (my mom was a single mother who worked 2 jobs pretty much her entire adult life and my Gram had been in consent pain for years) and they are there with Him because of who's birth we celebrate this season. But knowing that sure doesnt make things easier.